I am now back on track, and as I am stuck in bed with a malicious headache today, my post will be a little on the tame side. My activity today may sound lame, but in fact was very revealing:
I turned off my phone for almost 4 hours!
This may seem ridiculous and not a difficult thing to do, but the reality is that I never turn off my phone unless I am seeing theatre or a film or am in a meeting or rehearsal. In any other case: It is always on. I have never fully realized the dependency that I have on my little phone fella. Yes, I have had the day that I forgot the phone and felt naked/ like something was missing the entire day, but in that case I knew all of my messages and missed calls would be waiting and displayed for me when I returned. In this case, I could have no idea that someone was trying to contact me! God forbid!
About ten minutes after I turned it off, as I was trying to nap, I forgot that it was off, and touched it to see if there was any activity. Of course then I remembered and put it down again, but I did it again 5 minutes later! I had no idea I had such a habit of checking it. I finally fell asleep for a while and all was well. When I awoke, I had to restrain myself from turning it back on right away. I had to ask myself: "what is so important that it can't wait another half hour?" I couldn't think of any answers that were both realistic and relevent, so I went back to sleep. When I woke up again, I decided that I had exercised my lack of phone control enough, and turned it on. Yes I had a voice mail from my mom, and one missed message, but it was nothing that couldn't wait that extra hour/ 2 hours. It seems pretty obvious that without my awareness, I have become a little too dependent on constant electronic communication with the world.
So there, another lesson learned. I have to say it was a very nice feeling to turn the world off for a while, knowing that nothing was going to bother me or interrupt my "me" time. A practice that I would highly recommend, and will be sure to do again for myself.
Love and Kindness all.
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